Tuesday, September 25, 2007

There is always a first time .

Well recently when i had gone home , my mom had found a my class pic from kinder garden. Looking at the pic , i was actually surprised i remembered most of the names ( esp. if you see some faces after 16-17 years ) . I remembered my life then ...... reading colourful books with big bright colours , playing stupid games ( half of whose names i don't even remember ) , when we were made to sleep in the class " legally " , when our plans and strategies included how to defeat that tiffin bully, getting beaten by girls ( ohh come on at that age girls are bigger and more powerful ) .

One more thing which i remembered was one frequent question which was asked to all of us a lot during that time " what do you want to become when you grow big ?". You got very different varied answers - astronaut , scientist , fighter pilot , cricketer , footballer , ice cream vendor ......... and the list goes on . For the 30 odd people in the class there were 30 different answers.

But now when i see that pic and actually see what some people ( these are the people with whom i still have contact , great even after changing 7 schools ) .... most of them are either becoming an engineer , a doctor , an architect, A lawyer ..........

There is no astronaut , no fighter pilot , no cricketer ...... somehow all of us took the road walked by and became what society expected from us . We took up a road with moderate competition , less hardship , high returns , high profit ...... And now if somebody ask's us what would you do if you were given a chance to do that again . The answer most of us would give would be " We are past that stage ", " it cannot happen now " ," no chance ".

And then i realised , these are the same excuses which we give when we want "ourselves " willingly don't want to do something . There is nothing which is too late .... cuz there is always a first time . I am not talking about a complete carrier change ... but striving to learn something new . Taking up what you wanted to become as a hobby , as your passion , as your drive ....

And believe me if you truly ask yourself ... somewhere inside that astronaut , that miss india , that fighter pilot would still be there .... waiting to come out ....

This post is dedicated to Flight lieutenant. Nimit Mehra ( the name i used to write sometimes when i was small )... hope he would have flown ..... ( All India NDA rank 7 air force cadre )

God dammit ! i will learn how to fly .....

Thursday, September 6, 2007

The world that is ...

Well this week is one week which history probably chose as the week to remember the important people who were born on earth . This week saw the death of 3 very important people who had shaped the history of the world . The three people were very diverse in their ideologies , their way of tackling a problem and also the problem they faced . But one thing was common between all 3 of them . All 3 of them were loved by the people ... they were loved by the masses .

CHE Guevara

This is the face which all of u have seen somewhere ... either on T-shirts , or on rock concerts , or on hippie parties ( too many in Goa ) . He is the face of rebellion against oppression all around the world . The saviour of the havenots .... . He is the one which is given most coverage newspapers and blogs all around the world . The socialist guerrilla , the guy who tho stood for the people but his ways were bloody . He wanted an eye for an eye , wanted to take everything in his own hands . He was the guy who even 30 years after his death is worthy of hogging columns in newspapers.

Lady Diana

The "people's princess " . She was the darling of everybody , right from the charitable work she did to the way she handled the media . Even today we remember her . Even today we remember that fateful night in Paris when she died .

Mother Teresa

The lady who lived for the poor , who cared for the poor , " the saint of the gutter " . Mother Teresa lived her life for the others . She never hurt anybody , never did bad to anybody .... but still the newspapers gave her the least coverage . For them it was just another person who died sometime . The work which she did was not important to give into their writing because it was not sensational . it did not involve killing people. It did not involve he rock concerts . It did not involve naxal ideology , it did not involve drugs .

Even lady Diana was in news because Camella Parker refused to attend her funeral . Their was reports that at the time of death lady Diana was pregnant which were later proved wrong .

What is the world coming to ? Are we only interested in gossip , paparazzi , conspiracy , scandals , violence , drugs . Have the old beliefs which were taught to us as a child lost their importance . Have we become so indifferent that we do not stop talking ill about some person who has died .

Seriously it is time to introspect . Look into ourselves , think what we have become . What our media has become .... what we want to hear . All these 3 people changed history , all 3 of them were important but the way in which they were remembered was not good .

May their souls rest in peace !!!

Monday, September 3, 2007

The Basic Instinct

Was looking up the newspaper for past few days to find some inspiration for writing . The only thing which was there in the newspaper was Left's tough unrelenting stand against the nuclear deal . It was just everywhere front page , page 3 , editorial , international news .... even some indications in the sports column . I wondered what has left got against the government that it opposes the government so vehemently . Why is it against the nuclear deal . The reason which i got as answer was probably left's pre cold war era anti capitalism and hence anti US stand . But then even the staunch rightist in the parliament were against the deal .

Why this ? two groups hardly having anything in common agreeing on the issue . And then .... just then it hit me . It was not the so called socialism , or defence of the country or even the selling our souls part, it was all farce . The truth is was and will remain .... EVERYTHING WHICH HAPPENS HERE HAPPENS FOR SOME SELFISH REASON . The left wants to stress on its importance and therefore tries to be the hurdle in everything . But it doesnot want to let go of the government because then it will lose the twetny pence importance which it has . The right on the other hand wants to get back the power .

It got me thinking . The basic instincts .... the basic feelings ... the basic principles which all of us have right from our birth ... selfishness , anger , meanness . Nobody teaches anybody these things , nobody teaches a child to cry , get angry , be possessive ... but he/ she still knows about them . Look around you everybody is busy in something or the other .... something selfish ... sometimes even at the cost of many things . This world is run on the whims and fancies of 10 % people with power and rest 90% people are dictated either directly or indirectly .

With time ... all you become is more selfish , mean , more practical .... more self centered ... and then one day you hate yourself . Hate yourself for what you have become .... but then you look around and remember the Darwinian rule .... survival of the fittest .

BITS has taught me a lot of things .. for which i am grateful to it . Transformed me from a boring hated bloke to a self confident guy . But one thing it has also taught me is to be self centred , making your path ... even at the cost of sacrificing somebody . And yes sometimes i do hate myself for that ... for what i have done .... but then ..... the basic instincts prevail ... change prevails .

Power , prestige , position ...... the things which govern this world .

i don't know what i have written .... but this is my grossest post ever .