Saturday, April 28, 2007


well today a look at samrth's status message defines the exams " hardwork is nothing but decreasing lucks contribution to deciding your fate"
how true ...... a man blames his luck only when he is coward enough not to take the blame on himself ( saying from personal exp ) .
hardwork is important for anything ... luck can take you to some destinations .... intelligence to some more ... but hardwork can take you anywhere , even when you don't have the preceding 2 with you.
as for luck ..... i believe the karma ... you have luck when your preceding actions have been good so that you deserve luck .

my compreez start on monday ( today kicked off with lab ) .... so wish me luck :)

ps : hardwork or not i dont know .... but i sure was lucky today .... got gps in civil lab .

Monday, April 23, 2007

the grind begins

well this is the part of the sem which i hate the most . the part just before the compreez ( this period sucks in BITS). it is filled with giving presentations , finishing reports , last minute exams ...... whoa too much and on top of that the fear of the slaughter in the compreez . today i finished french .... dont ask me anything cuz seriously i dont know anything but it feels good atleast one thing is over .

for the first time in my life i will sign a stamp paper . i am doing my ps1 at GOA SHIPYARD(so wont be staying home :( ) and it being a defence establishment requires people to sign some info to get priority entry.... feels good ... i might be working as an undercover agent someday fighting goons ... ok now come back to reality .

going back to my studies now cuz i srsly dont wanna screw these compreez like ther predecessors.

Friday, April 20, 2007

i am getting old !!!!!!!!!!

well i am not the kind of a person who likes looking in the mirror , but today when i was tryyyyyyyyying to study and obviously was not able to concntrate . my face was turning in every direction ... either watching the empty corridors from my room window or looking at the occasional passing of a navy harrier .

just then i looked in the mirror and there was it ... the culprit ... the damn one string of white hair . i am getting old ... i have white hair ...ohh my god . abhi to maine kuch bhi nahi kiya hai ( you get what i mean ) . till now i was only afraid that i would get bald one day but getting old was far out of my dreams and this damn string of hair .................
i tried to postulate many reasons .... probably i was studying too hard .. na i am below average in 2 subjects .
i am too stressed out .... yes if you call wtching 2 episodes and a movie a day stressing out yeah i am stressed out .

i dont know but now that i have this white string of death i should speed up things before i have a body like a polar bear . till then i will contemplate why i got this white string

i am getting old !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.............. SHIT

Monday, April 2, 2007

to be in the line of fire

well this is something which i didnt write ..... got it in a mail by shahsank (boxer ) but liked it a lot .... so put it here .

Vivek Pradhan was not a happy man. Even the plush comfort of the air-conditioned compartment of the Shatabdi express could not cool his frayed nerves. He was the Project Manager and still not entitled to air travel. It was not the prestige he sought, he had tried to reason with the admin person, it was the savings in time. As PM, he had so many things to do. He opened his case and took out the laptop, determined to put the time to some good use.
“Are you from the software industry sir," the man beside him was staring appreciatively at the laptop.
Vivek glanced briefly and mumbled in affirmation, handling the laptop now with exaggerated care and importance as if it were an expensive car.
"You people have brought so much advancement to the country sir. Today everything is getting computerized."
"Thanks," smiled Vivek, turning around to give the man a look.
He always found it difficult to resist appreciation. The man was young and stocky like a sportsman. He looked simple and strangely out of place in that little lap of luxury like a small town boy in a prep school. He probably was a railway sportsman making the most of his free traveling pass.
"You people always amaze me," the man continued, "You sit in an office and write something on a computer and it does so many big things outside."
Vivek smiled deprecatingly. Naivety demanded reasoning not anger. "It is not as simple as that my friend. It is not just a question of writing a few lines. There is a lot of process that goes behind it." For a moment, he was tempted to explain the entire Software Development Lifecycle but restrained himself to a single statement. "It is complex, very complex."
"It has to be. No wonder you people are so highly paid," came the reply.
This was not turning out as Vivek had thought. A hint of belligerence came into his so far affable, persuasive tone.
"Everyone just sees the money. No one sees the amount of hard work we have to put in. Indians have such a narrow concept of hard work. Just because we sit in an air-conditioned office does not mean our brows do not sweat. You exercise the muscle; we exercise the mind and believe me that is no less taxing."
He had the man where he wanted him and it was time to drive home the point.
"Let me give you an example. Take this train. The entire railway reservation system is computerized. You can book a train ticket between any two stations from any of the hundreds of computerized booking centres across the country. Thousands of transactions accessing a single database, at a time concurrency; data integrity, locking, data security. Do you understand the complexity in designing and coding such a system?"
The man was stuck with amazement, like a child at a planetarium. This was something big and beyond his imagination. "You design and code such things."
"I used to," Vivek paused for effect, "But now I am the Project Manager,"
"Oh!" sighed the man, as if the storm had passed over, "so your life is easy now."
It was like being told the fire was better than the frying pan. The man had to be given a feel of the heat.
"Oh come on, does life ever get easy as you go up the ladder. Responsibility only brings more work. Design and coding! That is the easier part. Now I do not do it, but I am responsible for it and believe me, that is far more stressful. My job is to get the work done in time and with the highest quality. To tell you about the pressures, there is the customer
at one end always changing his requirements, the user wanting something else and your boss always expecting you to have finished it yesterday."
Vivek paused in his diatribe, his belligerence fading with self-realisation. What he had said, was not merely the outburst of a wronged man, it was the truth. And one need not get angry while defending the truth. "My friend," he concluded triumphantly, "you don't know what it is to be in the line of fire."
The man sat back in his chair, his eyes closed as if in realization. When he spoke after sometime, it was with a calm certainty that surprised Vivek.
"I know sir, I know what it is to be in the line of fire," He was staring blankly as if no passenger, no train existed, just a vast expanse of time.
"There were 30 of us when we were ordered to capture Point 4875 in the cover of the night. The enemy was firing from the top. There was no knowing where the next bullet was going to come from and for whom. In the morning when we finally hoisted the tricolour at the top only 4 of us were alive."
"You are a..."
"I am Subedar Sushant from the 13 J&K Rifles on duty at Peak 4875 in Kargil. They tell me I have completed my term and can opt for a land assignment. But tell me sir, can one give up duty just because it makes life easier. On the dawn of that capture, one of my colleagues lay injured in the snow, open to enemy fire while we were hiding behind a bunker. It was my job to go and fetch that soldier to safety.”
“But my captain refused me permission and went ahead himself. He said that the first pledge he had taken as a Gentleman Cadet was to put the safety and welfare of the nation foremost followed by the safety and welfare of the men he commanded.”
“His own personal safety came last, always and every time. He was killed as he shielded that soldier into the bunker. Every morning now, as I stand guard I can see him taking all those bullets, which were actually meant for me. I know sir, I know what it is to be in the line of fire."
Vivek looked at him in disbelief not sure of his reply. Abruptly he switched off the laptop. It seemed trivial, even insulting to edit a word document in the presence of a man for whom valour and duty was a daily part of life; a valour and sense of duty which he had so far attributed only to epical heroes.
The train slowed down as it pulled into the station and Subedar Sushant picked up his bags to alight.
"It was nice meeting you sir."
Vivek fumbled with the handshake. This hand had climbed mountains, pressed the trigger, and hoisted the tricolour. Suddenly as if by impulse,he stood at attention and his right hand went up in an impromptu salute. It was the least he felt he could do for the country.
PS: The incident he narrates during the capture of Peak 4875 is a true-life incident during the Kargil war. Capt. Batra sacrificed his life while trying to save one of the men he commanded, as victory was within sight. For this and his various other acts of bravery he was awarded the Param Vir Chakra the nation's highest military award.

Live humbly, there are great people around us, let us learn!
Winners are too busy to be sad, too positive to be doubtful, too optimistic to be fearful and too determined to be defeated!

well now i write ..... . the kargil war . I was in 7 standard when the kargil war was going on . we had the summer break and i was in ludhiana ... somehow i had a lot of trips to delhi and therefore visit to railway station were frequent . i saw soldiers going to warfront , bofors guns transferred ... army mobilizing . and their confidence . not thinking even for a moment that this might be their last trip . everyday the news was filled with stories of brave matyrs ... who laid their life fighting for their motherland .

i salute you all ....


captain vikram batras words to his girlfriend ... either i will come with indian flag or will come wrapped in it .
he came with the later